The Law of Attraction

I started writing this as a "I-wish-my-life-was-different"-type of post. Then I watched a YouTube video about the law of attraction and I deleted all of what I had written.

Yesterday, was a difficult day for me. Long story short, I had plans to meet someone and they bailed on me. I proceeded to spend my time walking the streets of downtown Toronto alone to find dinner. Then I spent my transit ride back home sulking about how much my life sucked. I couldn't understand why the world kept putting me in these situations. I'd get all excited to see someone I hadn't seen in a long time, just to get let down when they don't show up which has happened more often than not. And when I would get to see a long-lost friend, the connection we used to have, wasn't there anymore and I was left feeling drained instead of elated after saying goodbye. 

Everytime I am let down I tell myself the only person I can count on is myself and sometimes family. We are the ones who can bring out my true everyday happiness. By thinking in this mindset I proceed to shut out the world and every other friend I have, and sometimes I go so far as to seek acceptance from the wrong people to fill the void I just created. All of which only creates a bigger hole to fall into. Back and forth I go in periods of joy and fear/hatred for the life I am living. This unhealthy cycle has to end because I am sick of it, and myself for allowing it to happen everytime.

The video I watched inspired me to make this change. Here is what I took away from it:

If something unpleasant happens, by lingering into that negative energy, I am only inviting more of that into my life. Maybe not now, but definitely later. That's when I started thinking that maybe the "reason" this phenomena of toxic people in my life keeps happening is because I keep letting it happen. It's not that I invite toxic people into my life. It's not even that the people are toxic or behave poorly. I am just naive and too hopeful that the next time will be different and so I throw everything I have at the next chance I get. But then I linger on any ounce of a negative sign, even sometimes wait for it to happen so that when it does I confirm the doubt I had already put into my head about that person. I am self-sabotaging my relationships and everything around me.

I thought the reason why I've never had a boyfriend is because I'm unlikable in "that way". But in reality it's because I am so scared to ever get my heart broken that I ultimately shut myself out. I don't allow myself to be carefree in any relationship. I overthink every little thing about every relationship without actually being present and allowing the energy of the world do what it does best; take care of me and guide me to the path it has planned.

The Law of Attraction focuses on the belief that positive, or negative, thoughts/energy will bring that same kind of energy into one's life. And I see no harm in believing in that. In this Youtube video they use visualization as a tool to implement LOA into their daily life. Basically, this means that by "visualizing" what it is you "want" to have, and making the right choices in life to get closer to that goal, you are guaranteed to reach your full potential. Simple enough right?

I used to secretly make fun of the people who were super "vibey" and into this kind of spiritual belief. Believing certain crystals carried energy just sounded wack, and trust me it still does. The difference here is that I am not ignorant to reality. All I am saying is that by focusing on positive energies in my (or your) life, and manifesting my dreams into the world, it will listen and work with me to make them happen. No good will ever come from focusing on the things I don't have or the things I desire to have, or the things that are going "wrong" in my life. The bad thing about having desire is that you are expressing to the world that you don't have something, and you want it. By putting that into the world you are only confirming that you don't have it, rather than telling the world you will have it. This change in mindset allows you to be at a high vibration to be surrounded by the highest positive energy.

With that being said I'd like to finish this off by manifesting my good vibes into the world and stating what I am, and will be, grateful for. I may already have these things, and I may not, but by picturing myself with everything I am grateful for, that positive energy will follow me to a path of continued positivity.

I am grateful for this beautiful house I own and designed.

I am grateful for the many experiences I have travelling around the world.

I am grateful for the healthy body I wake up to every morning.

I am grateful for the support and love I receive from the people I surround myself with.

I am grateful for pursuing my passions everyday.

I am grateful for continuing to be my honest and pure self everyday.

xoxo